'Oh my, what are you doing?' I mutter, scared out of my mind. I feel helpless - just like I felt when I had to go to the gyno for the first time in my life. 'More passion, Nicole, more passion. Show me your passion.' Jack's voice is unbelievably calm. 'Now get loud.' I try to push his hands away but he is too strong. He keeps on drilling me with his fingers, faster and faster with every second. Suddenly I understand that I could have pushed him away with my legs. Could have pushed him away if I wanted to. I will do it right now. Right now, just a couple of more seconds of that rough fingering.